bye 2007...回顾07‘

Every year I would like to review back my life on last day of the year. 2007 for me was a year that full of challenging. 2007, is my first time I working as full time staff (Asist.Architect); The most number of countries I visited than before(China, Hong Kong, Cambodia, Poland, and the UK); The longest period didn't go back home; The first time study in oversea; and the most amount of money I have been spent ever before! Actually, 2007 is one of  the turning point in my life, I've been faced a lot of hard times, hard decisions and unbelievable changing in life. It just seem like open my mind to the world suddenly, and most of the dream become true. Nevertheless, I know I won't be stopped here and I can't as well. I do believe that 2008 is another more challenging year for me to move forward. 2008 is a great year for every one and I wish all of your dream coming true in 2008!   ~HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008~

每年的最后一天，我就会习惯性的回顾这一年的自己。每次我都会反问我自己：一年又过去了，我有在这一年里做过了什么吗？又有为我将来努力了什么？ 然后我就会好好的反省过去的一年的大小事，想想接下来新的一年里我能够改进的方向。这也是我每年为自己庆祝过年的一个‘仪式’，也维持多年了。其实我知道未来发生什么事情谁也不知道，谁也不能控制；但我总相信有梦想，有努力，事竟成！努力后不能实现，我相信凡走过必留下痕迹，只要尝试过，就不会有遗憾。我常常告诉自己人生短短，并没有许多时间让我们去遗憾和浪费；身边的人事物都可能有渐去的一天，有些时光若不把握，将一去不回。有时我也会懒惰和颓废，也会失去方向，但当我听到床边的闹钟秒针一答一答的响时，就知道时间正在一秒一秒的流失中，我就会尝试振作起来。如果问我2008年有什么愿望，我会说：只希望我在2009年时不会对这一年有任何的遗憾！

Quiet Christmas...宁静的圣诞

This is a completely quiet Christmas day. That day in the morning, I looked out from my window , it is a sunny day; I looked down on the main street and it is unbelievable quiet........ no people, no buses, no cars, not even one shop is opened. Most of my friends was very curious about how fun the Christmas was in the UK, but every time they asking the question, my answer is always the same: "boring, boring and boring". It is really not that fun compare with Malaysia, actually it is a day for Christian to celebrate with their family and it is a common way the people celebrate it here. Anywhere, even-though it is the most boring Christmas in my life, but I am sure it was absolute the day that I can't forget forever.

梁静如有宁静的夏天，我却有宁静的圣诞。这天一早醒来后，从房间窗口望出去，街上冷静的很，没有一个人，一辆巴士或一间开门做生意的店。由于我的房间是对大路，所以平时都非常吵闹和繁忙；今天突然间这些景象和声音都不见了，剩下的只有那空荡荡的街道。非常的宁静，很久都没有那么的宁静了。虽然是一个人‘熬’过圣诞节，但宁静的一天带给我心里不少的平静。今年的圣诞虽是最寂寞的一次，也没有任何的特别，但我肯定的是我永远都不可能忘记这一宁静的圣诞节。

Snow world...白色世界

white world
Oh, the real snow on my hand

Today is the first time in my life to see a snow. It is an unforgettable night and so amazing, the world turn all in white. Pure white every way from the street to the lamp pole. I have forgotten where am I now and it is so magical. Even I have been seen snow in some movies couple of times, but this time is real! I can touch the snow and feel it, I can see the snow falling down from the sky. Oh my god, I can't say how nice it was but it is really a lovely present to me before Christmas . 

12月21日是我人生中第一次看到真正的下雪，这种感觉真的毕生难忘。那一晚由于做Part time那儿出现了调动的错误，本来去工作的我却在半途中搭巴士回家。本想今晚有收入可是又临时说取消，算是可怜的一晚吧！既然回家也显得无聊，就打电话约一位老外朋友出来喝喝酒（在马来西亚就是我们所谓的喝茶）。今天天气也的确异常的冷，天空都是灰灰的。 晚上十点左右，当我们走出门外时，竟然发现整个世界好象变了；从走进来灰色的调调，成了白色世界。从马路，路灯，垃圾桶和停在马路边的汽车都被薄薄的雪花布上了一层白纱。我兴奋地用手轻轻抹了一层 雪，感觉就象非常幼细的爽身粉，粉粉冰冰的，太神奇了！在抬头往上看，在街灯照耀下闪闪发亮的雪花，象飘在空中的‘金粉’，徐徐落下；下雪的世界也真的太梦幻了！由于爱丁堡并不是常常下雪的地方，所以今晚这场短暂的白色世界，令这个古城里的人们异常的开心。我一个人走回家的路途中，一面象一个小孩似的，踢脚底的雪花，一面享受这爱丁堡提前送给我的圣诞礼物。。。

Before Christmas...圣诞前夕

For somebody before christmas is so exciting, but for me this time before christmas is so boring. Most of my friends went back to their home town, especially Amo friends; Malaysian friends some of them go to travel and some of them went back to Malaysia as well. For me, now I am a lone in Edinburgh. Working part time during weekend, doing assignment during weekday. Four walls in my room is the only world to me during this Christmas season. Now i know, Christmas in the place that closer to Santa Claus is not really exciting, I rather than have my Christmas time with my lovely family and friends from Malaysia.....

这是一个何其寂寞的圣诞前夕。古人说每逢佳节倍故乡，虽不是华人佳节，但是在这充满佳节气氛的小城里何以不回想家里的温暖呢？这里的朋友回乡的回乡，旅行的旅行；而我却象个被遗忘的流浪者，残留在这个寒冷的夜空里。现在真的很冷，每天都是零下，连出门都要三思。所以大部分时间就躲在房间里无聊。城外虽有很多人群在购买圣诞礼物，但这都与我无关；这里的礼物我又买不起，而且又是一个人过，在热闹的街道上，并没有一个熟悉的脸孔，多么的陌生呀。幸好我还有一架能让我连系远放朋友的电脑，使我在这冷冷的夜里增添一丝丝的温暖。

Amo's work...老外作品

Long time no see everybody  loh!
           A drawing that produced by my course-mate
Final year model
Final year model
Final year site model

I became very stress now after I visit the final year student's project. It is so amazing! I still need to push myself to that level but it is really not easy. Frankly, I still do not know how to achieve that kind of level in the moment because it is true that I have a big gap with them in term of studio work. I think I good enough in architectural drawing but Amo keen to present with model and model is almost everything here. No body will blame you because you did not put scale or north point in your drawings but their will cut your mark because you can't present a good model. Alamak! It such a great challenge to me. You all know I am not talent in doing models and my work-man ship is terrible lah. 

这次真的大镬啦！

Presentation 1

My model: use radio as a raw material
My presentation board: arranged base on my design concept
Presentation: wahhhh....many amo listen to Axxu's bullshit

The five weeks work finally presented, this was my first proper presentation on my studio work. Actually, I was felt very nervous when I'm presented in front of many Amo. They take presentation very seriously and most of Amo present very well and hebat! Some of them just present their models, some of them used animation to present and he just sit back to watch his presentation with us. Their models are fantastic and unthinkable,some of them used bags, furniture, chairs, guitar or wax to do their models. They do have many funny ideas in their projects, collect water one, projector house, fishing house and so on....... We do not have any restriction in the project so we can choose wherever site we wanted, whoever client we imagined, and whatever presentation methods you liked. Even the presentation time and date was chosen by ourself. It is so awesome! But in other where it was too hard for us to find a right direction for our project, it might came out nothing in the end of the day. It did happened where many people could not manage to finish their work of the presentation. Please don't thinks the tutors all are nice people, some of them are bad, they will stop you from talking and ask you a question straightly, and just shooting you directly. Anywhere, my presentation get a good response from most of them. But don't happy too early, normally amo like to give you a very nice and polite face in front of you, but when come to marking you never ever can predict what will going on......They very serious in their job and profession, it is the most danger situation here indeed.

第一次在这样多老外面前做呈现真不习惯。文化不同就是不同，这里乱讲也需要技巧。我知道我的Axxu's language苦了他们， 他们的老外英文也苦了我耶。这场呈现真的不知所措，看着老外朋友做出一批批惊人的模型，概念，真的自叹不如呀！在马大时，我都非常了解讲师们的心理，知道他们喜欢听的东西，都尽可能控制局面。但初到远在英国的这里，就连来评我的人我都不知他从那儿来，更不用说了解其他了。我也不知道我说用的词句对他们来说是否能接受或是不礼貌，或有得罪的地方？有些词语或肢体语言在马来西亚很正常而在这儿可能是会让人觉的不舒服。但也有时候他们觉的很平常的词语，但在我们听来却回有误会；如他们讲：what a shame you make this meaningless model! 我听起来真的很不舒服，觉的有被羞辱的感觉，但一问之下才知道what a shame 在这里并不是羞耻的意思而是How pity you are...带有同情或可惜的意思。短短的一句话就包藏着不同的理解，更可能会造成误会。所以，有时只要他们问到一些出其不意的问题，我就不敢乱乱回答了，到最后我就乱了阵脚。知已不知彼，不战就输了。得了着一次的经验，我得下多点功夫学好更好水准的呈现方法。原来最后交功课这一天并不是结束，而是一切的开始。

小马 对 大马

有一位远在新加坡念法学系的学长在他的布格落里提到，他在新加坡被中国的朋友称：小马哥。而我在英国这里中国的朋友都叫我：小马。 从小到大我只知道我们的国家称大马，听到他们叫小马总觉的有点怪，但其实若他们叫我们为大马也更怪了，中国国土那么大，人口那么多；马来西亚在他们的眼里也就理所当然的‘小马’了，我也就这样在国外成了小马的代表。

我们这一匹马虽小，但是实力并不输于人：

实力一，我们有令人羡慕的语言能力。有时并不是我们能够讲一流的英语如老外；一流的华语如中国人；和一流的粤语如香港人，但肯定的是我门可以更以上的所有人沟通。有时侯中国人也不能有效地与香港人沟通，虽说是同一个国家。

实力二，我们有强大的适应能力。身为马来西亚人，我们从小就接触到不同种族，不同语言和不同文化。在这里我们能够跟中国朋友谈三国演义；更香港人谈tvb，王菲；和老外谈west life, spice girl. 

实力三，马来西亚人是一个很令人好奇的国家。这是因为我们是小地方，许多人都对我们了解不深，所以我们总是有许多老外觉得惊讶和不可思议的好玩东西，坐下来喝茶总有课题可说。

实力四。。。。哈哈，我保留这个实力四，若不我们就看起来非常了不起了。借用邓小平先生的名言来总结一句：无论是小马还是大马，跑的快的就是好马！